When you really want to be free
~*~
BLACK!!
AARATHI RANGACHAR
the color of depth,
of unfathomable darkness.
searching thro it
to behold something,
delving deeper and yet
finding nothing:
it is inviting
with a spark here
and a gleam there,
dominating
displaying nothingness
and yet subtle
with it's silence,
challenging
and hiding all the colors
of life within,
a beauty to behold!!
~*~
Dancing Among The Stars
Aaron Baity
When I look up
at the sky at night
My dreams seem
to come to life
After a day
of work and stress
I lay back
to put my thoughts to rest
and see her
dancing across
the Milky Way
She glides through the galaxy
on her steps
Dancing among the stars
at night
Dancing across
Mars, Jupiter and Saturn
wearing Orion's belt
Venus must have seen
this beautiful dancer
only in a dream
Dancing among the stars tonight
~*~
I DIE
Alvene Vanita Appollis
Like the white petals of the white rose,
a piece of me fall to earth every day
and the more I fall, the more it hurts,
but your beautiful, brown eyes seem so blind
so distant~ so faraway...
Time is fading and soon it will be nothing,
but white mist
and the inner-me seeks the inner-you
and returns with nothing, not even your kiss
I run up to the mountains,
to get you off my mind
just to find
that I'm caught up in the ropes of love
not even the angels up above
could untie me
and the hours are ticking by...
The moon has risen from its depth
and returned a thousand times before
the ocean was a storm
still-I'm standing on the shore
waiting for my angel
to let my wings grow
so that I may know
how to spread them and fly
instead, I die
little by little and bit by bit
I'm becoming a soul wandering on the earth
So lost without you
one bundle of emptiness
wishing for completeness
needing you more than I need myself
Always remember-never forget
That Time is near to white mist
and I?
I die...
~*~
Sleepless & Paranoid
Vicki Pinderski
My stomach turns when I see you. The lights grow dim , I act like I
can’t hear you. The thoughts of then, I dream in my sleep. So can
you leave alone for just one night. I wake up sweating, I can hear my
heart race. Stumble to the bathroom to splash cold water on my face.
MY thoughts run deep and I can’t get back to sleep. I try to forget you,
but something holds me back. I’m trying to loose you, but I only loose
myself. Don’t think, can’t sleep. I’m tired but I can’t shut my
eyes. Paranoia runs through my veins, into my brain, Y do I feel your
right behind me, just waiting for me to turn around? You don’t need me,
you never did. I was just here waiting for something to come along.
Patience is killing me. Get out of my head and leave. Cuz all I want is a
good night's sleep.
~*~
I SHALL LEAD YOU INTO THE SHADOWS,
AND EMBRACE YOU WITH THE MISTS OF MY PASSION.
SHALL LET YOU FEED UPON THE FRUITS OF THOUGHTS AND THE POWERS OF MY
DREAMS...
HOW STRONG THEY ARE...
YOUR POWERS!
EXHAUSTING MY RESISTANCE,
AS MY WILL BECOMES YOURS,
I LIVE YOU AS MYSELF.
AND AS ONE WE BECOME, LIVING THE UTMOST OF OUR LIFES, POWERS TO THE
FULLEST.
OUR THOUGHTS WONDERING THROUGH DREAMS...
LEAVING US LOST, BUT IN THE END, OUR FEELINGS AMOUNT TO THE ELEMENTS OF
LOVE,
WHICH LEADS US TOGETHER...
ELEMENTS? EARTH, AIR, FIRE, WATER, LOVE?
EACH NEEDING THE OTHER TO SURVIVE!
SERENA
~*~
PAINFUL HAIKU
by Sarah Tracy
Hail Kama Sutra
Shit,I'm stuck in position!
Please call 911.
~*~
CHEATED OUT OF LOVE
Tina Maria Brodbeck
I stand alone to fight
against all that you stand for
You think your always right
I'm pushed down to the floor
to you I'm never worth the site
so why don't I show you the door,
Like you even care
you made me feel low
and yet you dare
to torture me slow
it isn't fair
for you made me unwhole,
Why do you hate me
why must you beat me down
you never let me be
and you managed towards me always to wear a frown
you won't ever see
you try to make of me a clown,
Why doesn't anyone love me
Lived by,
Dragon's Tear
~*~
I AM WHO I DON'T WANT TO BE
I AM THE GIRL WHO JUST WANTS TO ONE LIKED
I AM THE ONE WHO IS DISLIKED
I AM WHO EVERYBODY WANTS ME TO BE
I AM IN LOVE WITH A GUY I CAN'T HAVE
I AM WISHING WE LIVED CLOSER
I AM WHO I DON'T WANT TO BE
-MALERIE MOORE
~*~
Everlasting Fight
By: Zero K
Years have passed and I continue to fight everything that crosses
my path everything I come in contact with and I manage to barely survive
but I do and still continue never once giving up never once accepting
what I was given, always fighting always surviving what life has put in
front of me, doing it alone without help without anyone to show me love
or care, no one to tell me about myself or life.
~*~
late night loneliness
mandalina stonier
so does he mean it
when he reaches out
am i the only one
and if yes
why then, cant i be the one
flying out here
needing to feel you
against my skin so dear
against rain
falling in streams
DIDN'T UNDERSTAND
ROSAURA
You thought I didn't care,
but my love has always been there
So you say you're going back,
What do I think about that?
I just need you to know, I don't want you to go
I'll miss you so much,
I can't believe it'll be such
Why couldn't it be, you and me
I'll never forget, I'll only regret
Now I'm going to cry
because I have to say good-bye
You will be no longer
and I will always wonder
Because of your absence I will be sad,
I didn't know what I had
If wished came true, I'd still be with you
Your dimples and smile, made it all worth while
Can you hold my hand for one last time
and pretend to be mine
I hope luck knocks on your door
and you find what you're looking for
What other way, can I say, I'll love you till the last day!
~*~
A YOUTHFUL EMBRACE
(Lucas Herr)
I'm growing old
and less vibrant now,
I've noticed
sometimes i'm just not loud,
and loving of the
life that god has given me.
I've always lived
in pain but this time there
just seems to be
less to gain, or feed from these
experiences
played about me. Like the worlds coming down
slowly upon my
shoulders, creaking, cracking from
heavy boulders,
can't seem to stay focus on my freedoms,
just my capture,
seeing my world slowly rapture, passion
is becoming a
dying embrace, sad to me 'cause it was a faith
for me to live
by, it was my very face, a place to hide,
a place to die,
and a place to cry. The youthful eyes I
remember me
by.
~*~
Intangible Reality
7/22/02
Matthew Timmons
So Far, yet distant you remain.
The slightest of words, are daggers through my heart.
Oh thou wants me close now. Only to walk away?
At my side you lay, all unanswered questions dorment again.
Peace for the moment, until I awake upon dreams end.
Cruelty of dreams, those pictures in your head.
The ones that bring you closer to me only to be torn apart by reality.
Yet in days light, you are.
The one whom I dream about, the one who is real.
But what is real?
~*~
WHAT DIFFERENCES?
(Bengie)
Excuse me Mommy and Daddy!
Why can't I play with Patty?
You say she's not like me.
But that's something I just don't see!
We both see the world through two eyes.
Know the trouble caused by telling lies.
We both talk the same way.
Listen to what our elders have to say.
We both hear the wind in the trees.
Cry when we fall and scrap our knees.
We both have been taught wrong from right.
And say our prayers at night.
We both don't understand our parents behavior.
So please do us a favor.
Remember we are all part of the human race.
Not just a color on a face.
a person shouldn't be judged by the color of their skin.
But what lies within!
Mommy and Daddy if you really try.
You could learn from Patty and I!
~*~
Could it be me,
The one I need to free me from my misery.
Could I be the one?
Because its all about me when its said and done.
Was I wrong for leaning on you?
No, that is what normal people do.
Was I wrong for trusting you?
No, I just shouldn't have done it so soon.
Enough being sad.
Its time to be glad.
Its my time to smile,
I haven't done that in a while.
I finally understand,
That I can be happy without a man.
You serve no purpose,
Yes boyfriend you are worthless.
No longer will you stop my shine.
Now the choice is mine.
I choose to live, not die.
I choose to smile not cry.
Kenya Jones
~*~
CHOICE
WILLIAM REICHERT
YOU SAY THAT YOU "LOVE THE MAN",
THEN YOUR LOVE IS THE GENERAL BRAND.
YOUR PLEASURE IS THE COMMON SPREAD.
IT WILL KEEP THE KIDS, CLOTHED AND FED.
AND WILL LAST UNTIL THE DAY YOUR DEAD.
IF YOU LOVE A PARTICULAR THING,
THEN LOVE HAS A DIFFERENT RING.
HIS EYES, HIS NOSE, OR HOW HE WARES HIS CLOTHES.
THIS IS WHEN A VIOLENT PASSION SHOWS.
AND A BROKEN HEART IS ALL IT KNOWS.
~*~