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"SO MANY REASONS"  
-  Dedicated to a very special girl, Shena

David Alexander II

There are so many reasons why I feel the way I do;

There are so many reasons why my heart keeps wanting you;

The intangible things… the smiling and laughing just making my internal world want you more;

I like everything about you, you are what I have been waiting for;

If I wasn’t afraid to love I know that I would love you;

If I wasn’t afraid to get hurt I would tell these feelings I have of you;

I know I shouldn’t feel this way, its almost like it’s a sin;

This is not a game to me, so I don’t care if I win;

I just need you to know my heart;

That’s basically all I wanted from the start;

I have been dreaming of you and the evanescence of your love;

These feelings that im feeling, its like there are sent from above;

There are just so many reasons,i cannot explain;

When i think about them it just gives me pain;

because i cant be with u the way i want to be;

to be with you is my only plea.

From an infant to a toddler,

From adolescence up to now.

There was an empty place inside of me

That needed you somehow.

Is love predetermined?

For I know we have free will,

To choose the paths we walk upon,

To move forward or stand still.

Each day is filled with choices,

Choose to rise or choose to sleep.

I choose to see what each day brings,

Choose to laugh and choose to weep.

All of these I can control,

Still I believe it is not chance,

The one we are meant to be with,

Is not merely circumstance.

Of all the things I choose in life,

There is one thing I know,

I had no choice in loving you,

I want more than anything to be in your arms,

But a heart is a delicate thing.

I don't know how much more breaking mine can take.

I want to be able to trust you,

My heart says yes, but my head says no.

All the nice things you say you feel,

But how do I know all this is real?

You seem to read me so well,

Is that the beginning, how do we tell?

While I'm still trying to find myself

Your extra years have given you so much more wealth.

So much time you're willing to invest

You have to be sure I'm worth it; and when you go out west,

Its quite possible you will never come back.

Will I be left hanging like a useless potato sack?

Its not good enough to know you want me near,

When inside I'll feel like a deep endless crater.

Many days after that will be spent wondering,

Why life is so cruel, why can't i be with you.

In the end we'll discover its just a test,

Everything always works out for the best.

So that's where we stand, now that its clear,

We have to make sure time won't be thrown out the window.

A FRIEND

                       To know you are suffering

                       The tears i weep for you

                       The good and bad times we had.

                         Oh how i will miss you

                        but i will always carry your memory

                        My heart will never forget you

                        and the 3 months we had together.

                         When death calls i will be thinking of you,

                         I'm sorry for the things i said,

                          I WAS WRONG TO SAY THEM .

                          But i will always look to the good times

                          Remember me ,and i of you.

ESSENCE

Everything stood uncompared letting time constantly be memory

Essence of me as i look vainly put-together and think no more of it

Be the river that flowed passed or the moon that stood

amongst the dark in a sky to be beauty

Voicing out things that i thought i was

That stars through themselves at the night sky

Knowing you are there never made me know your names

to tell you apart

Remembering when i never studied my essence

In times of hurt and throwing away things that just stood

to cover an whole in my soul

That moon comes to greet the sun and time between when everything

stands still

Borrowing nature plain purity never needing to be pompous

beauty unmentioned

Things that some never grow past acceptance

And when you ask me what it means i will never describe it

to your feel

never describe it to your depth only something that hurt

my heart and resurfaces emotionally.

   REAL DREAM
Anashen Navasartian

I saw you right next to me

You were holding my hand

Tight, tight as if you were scared,

Scared of losing me.

You liked looking into my eyes,

As if you could see something,

Something which lies deep inside me.

I could never thought of closing my eyes,

Closing my eyes and forbid you to reach my heart.

But I never closed, never closed and never forbid.

You were there right when I needed you,

Even when someone else took my heart and threw it away.

When you put your arms around me, made me feel a warmth, a real warmth.

The sweet words which you murmured into my ear, made me feel I was living a reality.

But suddenly I woke up,

T*H*E ~ M*I*S*S*I*N*G ~ L*O*V*E

by: DANNY COOK

I've Heard All Is To Whisper ~ & Felt All Is To See,

From The Silence Of My Prayers So Sure ~ To The Dreams I Came To Believe,

& As The Nights Laid In Darkness ~ As Nothing Was To Touch Love So Near,

Until I Felt Your Heart Of A Kiss ~ To Make The Magic Reappear,

But As Something Still Feels So Empty,

& The Secrets Vanished To Think,

Until Time Of Tests Lead To Find Me . . . . .

T*H*E ~ M*I*S*S*I*N*G ~ L*O*V*E,

Who Am I

Who am I to kiss your lips

To hold your hand in mine

I'm not your friend, nor your acquaintance

I'm simply a girl, longing for your touch

Wanting to be held, needing all your love

Hoping soon, I'll wake up from this dream

MISSING YOU

                 By, Victoria Mendoza

Just the other day I passed a place that reminded me of you. It took me back to our memories just like dejavu.

Now you're on my mind and I can't seem to forget. I wish you were still here so I could tell you how much you've meant.

Your smile on those bad days was the light on my path to brighten my way.

Your eyes and their sparkle when you looked into mine always seemed to send shivers all down my spine.

I'm not much of a joke teller but when I said one, We'd both laugh together though we knew it was dumb.

It's so much different now, you're miles away.

No more looking in your eyes I can only hear the words you say.

I should have told you how I felt when I had the chance,

I should have poured my heart out to you then. . .instead I'm DREAMING of romance.

You've always meant the world to me, and I don't think you even knew.

I wish you were looking at me face to face, cause right now I'd tell you so.

You've been there throughout the many changes in my life, and never made me doubt, that you are an exceptional person that I could never live without.

So to you I say this one last thing, and hopefully you'll never forget,

I love you forever and always, and for you I was meant....

SHE KISSED ME

                          By Michael Bassford

             

                 she kissed me, beneath the starry skies

               she kissed me, moonlight shining in her eyes

               she kissed me, and i floated from the ground

                 she kissed me, my soul leapt up unbound

                 she kissed me, it will never go away

                she kissed me, and until my dieing day

                     you will always hear me say

                           she kissed me.

                       

"ETERNAL PARADISE"

The gray sky looms with threatening storm clouds

As water droplets fall slowly upon the house windows

But the fire inside provides a feeling of temporary assurance

Lying beneath a blanket I yearn for you to return to me

Anxiously I await your homecoming long past-due

My eyes begin to strain as I longingly stare at the front door

Yet at the mere muffle of your key turning in the door

I become enlivened and spiritedly run to greet you with love

Your haggard expression and drenched clothes show your weariness

Nevertheless I smile with happiness and usher you into our home

Closing the door I lovingly insist you put on something dry

Ignoring my suggestions you kiss me softly on the nape of my neck

With a weakened will I try again to suggest that which is good for you

But my words come out mumbled with your finger placed upon my lips

Silently hushing me with small gestures and a cunning grin

Annoyed, I fold my arms and show a skeptical expression - which fades away

As my body slowly gives into your sensual passion ­ into eternal paradise...

WAIT

       - by Ganesh Manikandan

Like a lover who is hurting and loath to part

would miss those moments spent with his heart's consort...

Like a train that speeds past squalid hovels

would miss children that wave and smile despite their fate so cruel...

Like a flower that blooms as a new dawn breaks

would miss an audience to eulogize its limitless grace...

Like a contrite man who has committed an unwitting crime

would miss the power to travel back in time..

I miss you my love, right by my side

as minutes pass by of unfulfilled promises we were not meant to bide...

Unspoken

The love for a friend remains.

But she sits, not saying a word, pretending everything is fine

Putting on the fake plastic smile she wears everyday

Denying her feelings, a bit longer as the pain slowly consumes her.

She would die to know he loved her,

She would do anything, go anywhere,

She would risk everything to be by his side,

Except losing him as a friend.

Is it worth the risk? Losing a friend, a best friend?

Just to let them know how you truly feel?

To tell them that you can’t live a day without them,

That they mean everything to you,

That even the smallest things about them captivate you,

The wind through their hair, a smile, a laugh.

Well, this girl will sit quietly, words unspoken,

Love secretly pledged,

In hopes that one day, he will find the words to say what she could not.

 

My Father

Edwin Flores

It's been two years since we first met

I've come to know and won't forget

that without you who called my name

lost was my cause, now not the same

Your grace given to me who asks

why would you toil with all that tasks

my soul  today unworthy of

blessings from you my God above

What could one offer  to you my  King

Father of life what could I bring

to you the Morning Star  that holds

the peace we need that your hands mold

Worn, battered by worldy storms

you gave me drink and now reborn

is once what was a faithless man

forgiveness yours no longer damned

My gift to you is what you see

my church family  those you set free

who hungered and in search of one

Jesus our Lord, my Christ, God's son

Happy Fathers Day To The Father Of Fathers

                             Jesus Christ

Because you lied

How many times have I asked you,

How many times can you answer,

How long will it take you,

To finally speak the truth.

To finally speak the truth

To finally stop lying,

To finally have an answer,

For once that's not a lie.

For once that's not a lie,

For once you'd look at me,

For once you'd understand,

How much it is I love you.

How much it is I love you,

How much it is I care,

How much that I hate you,

Because you lied to me AGAIN.

when I am not there

  RAY

                             When I am not there,

                         nobody would shade a drop of tear,

                         nobody would ever remember,

       

                             When I am not there,

                         the sea would still roar,

                         the garden would still be

                         full with blooming flower,

     

                              When I am not there,

                          sun would still rise and set,

                          birds would go back to their nest,

                          Sky would be moonlit and with the twinkling star,

                                When I am not there,

                          there would still be the morning choir,

                          sweeping the road and the floor,

                          the boy at the corner selling

                          the roses,other flower,

                               When I am not there,

                          there would sill be village fair,

                          the small girl with an ice candy full of cheer,

                  the dreaming young farmer,buying the plough,rainy wear,

                              When I am not there,

                           mill furnace would still be on fire,

                           the machines would still be on production gear,

                          Sweat smell of toilers would still be in the air,

                          in roadside eateries,people would still pour,

                          When I am not there,

                        just remember,here was one full of love forever,

                        for all that makes life so beautiful,

                        the little girl going to school,

                        one hand caught by the tiny brother,

                        or the small boy with handful of books and paper,

                      the groups of small children,eating the midday meal.

I love you

I want to thank you for healing my heart

only to make me feel loved

you kissed my tears goodbye

and made me love you

you've changed my ways

only for me to know that he's not the only one

you've given me a chance to love again and

I promise that you'll be the only one in my life

I love to hear you say sweet things

and say "I love you"

"I love you too"

you've hugged me

and only comforted me

you've erased my past relationships

and made them look like nothing

i want to thank you

by telling you I'll always be yours forever

you've become my lover

my everything

My Confession

Every time you look at me.

Every time you stare.

Every time you touch me.

I wonder if you care.

You don't want to say it,

But I see it in your eye.

Sometimes when I see you it almost makes me cry.

Why can't you make up your mind?

Your true feelings are what I want to find.

Not what your friends think, nor mine.

If we stay friends, I promise that's fine.

We were friends from the very start,

But is there more?

If there is it'd make my heart soar!

I'm so tired of playin these games!

Please don't run away in shame!

I QUIT!

I feel like throwing a fit!

Playing this game makes me feel like ****!!!

I love you and you love me,

But where is is it going to go?

Should I let my true feelings show?

So here I am to confess my heart,

I've loved you from the very start.

All I want to know is how you feel.

Is what we have really real?

But then again we don't have anything do we?

Should we make something of it or just let it be?

So now it's all up to you,

What are we going to do?

My confession is over,

I've blown my cover.

No Happy Endings

Alone in the dark

Trying to find my way out

Doing my best

Not to scream and shout

Down in the hole

That's as empty as my life

Without you right here

As my loving wife

My mind is a blank

With life without you

I just couldn't tell you

What i'm going to do

Feeling so empty

My heart is so dead

From everything you have wrote

And the tings that you said

Beginning to understand

What it's like to die inside

Can't run from these feelings

It's no use to hide

There are no happy endings

There is no brighter day

And there's nothing, nothing

That anyone can say

To make me feel better

To get on with my life

Cause I loved you so

MISSING YOU

I will always miss you, I know that I can't help it. Hatred bursts inside of me, cutting me, breaking me. When have I tortured you, hurt you, bullied you? Why are you killing me? Why are you draining me? I miss you so much, I need you to love. Feelings of hatred and embarrassment, it's killing me, choking me. I know that you don't want me, but I can't let go.

MOMENT

Ruben Rodriguez

One moment endures to timeless end,

Captured and embraced until forever's end.

Sustaining me now to hold on true,

Nourishing my soul like nothing I ever knew.

Fulfilling my life and strengthening my will,

Pushing me forward to this very day still.

Enduring the pressing day that lowers my head,

Lending your smile amidst all of the dread.

Uplifting my heart to swelling devotion,

Filling my eyes with watery emotion.

Exhausting the mind and body close follows,

Until the next moment sounds in a whisper low.

All of my love I give to you,

I choose to spend my life with you.

I proclaim to the world of my heart's torment,

I am bound to your love with each passing moment.