OPEN MIC ENCORE II February

What and where I am.

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The sweetness of the soul

Linn Garden (c) scotland

In the distant sounds I hear the drum of soulful beats A sweetness out to cherish for the love I long to meet

A glanced smile in the mirror I breathe in his heavenly touch I savour all his sweetness in the air, the light, the lush

Melancholic chimes play out there tuneful melodies I sing out to there rhymes and feel there gentle calls to me

Heartfelt words reached from my nite bring sweetness to my soul A kiss so gently felt the rippled ecstasy 's my goal

The Moon stands in oblivion with Jupiter and Mars Opening the doors of love with time keys in my hand

I remember all the resonance total love and where to go I know wheels are in motion and that love is in our know

In the realms of our dominion what’s inside this space is true that inner self of knowingness the self that’s me and you

Moving to that one place feeling sweetness of the soul I know this love is special for its essences wrapped in gold

New chapters just beginning its barely started yet begun And I feel the energy of two that are just one

Totality in motion wrapping sweetness with its breath A union blessed with energy as it travels from the west

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As I lay before I sleep,

I delve into my mind so deep,

And as I reach the forbidden door,

I don't think I can go any more.

Painful memories rush through my eyes,

Reminding me of love and lies,

The tears roll down my willing face,

Leaving treads for the next tears to trace.

My life has had it's ups and downs,

My life has had it's smiles and frowns,

I just try to take it day by day,

And hope everything will come out okay.

And as I close my eyes it seems,

The memories carry into my dreams,

Haunting my sleep, I toss and turn,

Swirling together in my mind they churn.

And as I sleep, I seldom smile,

As the dreams go by in their own style,

And when I wake and face the dawn,

I know that night they'll carry on.

David Bourgeois

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Only

matt savy

The emptiness inside that truth once escaped,

This barren pit, with walls that are scraped,

The boy inside crying, clawing his way out,

Only to make tracks down this infinite route.

Hope gives meaning into one’s life,

Hope is a feeling that gets rid of strife.

Hope is a falsehood that turns out great,

Only if that hope is fulfilled on that date.

Where does it end and when does it start?

These are the questions inside my heart.

He who holds these answers is unbounded,

Only to be put in a situation dumbfounded.

If I could answer this great life conundrum,

Life would take meaning and not be so humdrum,

If I held the key that ended this monotony,

Only I could walk on water and I could split the sea.

I think I have unlocked it I have the key,

I think I have reached the top, I can see,

If this were the case and I could be,

“Only,” would not be describing me--

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life is unjust, They keep blaming me, i know wut i did,

but they wont let me be.their shuving it in my face, they dont

have to scream,what i did was

wrong,i understand your a team.I know im not doing well but that doesnt

mean that you should have

pushed me. That just made me loose faith and SOME of my wisdom fell.

Some is still with me, but as you kept screaming,i kept beaming.

I lost my temper

i lost my privledges but most of all i lost you. I try to do better,

but wut i tell you, you dont believe the truth.

You think im bad, and i now you think im a failure. Im sorry i made

you move, im sorry i dissapointed you.

Im sorry i mest up your life and im sorry,i didnt do good. I know you think im just a

little mest up kid, im just

misunderstood. I am different from you, and you know that im right.

I will try harder i promise with all my might.

You just have to stop, and just dont talk to me. dont talk to me about school, or dont talk

TO me if my grades are cool.

Just bringing it up makes me feel low, you just dont care,i just want to go. I keep wanting

to leave, bcuz i no ur life

would be better if i just left. Stop and think and you know the truth, your other kids are great

but im the one with the

worst hate. I cry at night just wanting to run away. I have no where to go and i dont belong in

this family. Everyone

would be happy if i just left. understand that one day im gone, dont be surprised, i did it for you,

i might just keep

running and never stop. But all your sadness will drop. You will be happy and thats the truth,

im saying this, bcuz its

for you. IM SITTING ON MY KNEES, BEGGING GOD PLEASE, TO CHANGE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME. MAYBE IF

I CHANGED YOU WOULD LIKE ME

MORE. i KNOW YOU STILL LOVE ME, BUT I THINK ITS BETTER IF I WASNT ME. I TRY TO BE SMART, BUT

EVERYDAY I HAVE A SCAR ON MY

HEART.

Celeste Avina

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Conformity is uniform

It takes you in

Makes you over

And spits you out

It molds and closes the mind

Bends and retracts the levers inside

Conformity is uniform

It swallows the soul

and hides the true being

Leaves less feeling

Alright it's fine

Allow it in

Then shove it out

Like a neighbors sin

Conformity is uniform

It's all like the rest

Following the same drummer

With monotone beats

The sound is too loud

To block out this crowd

Off it goes

Solemnly down

the only road the uniform knows

Peter Cutty

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Beware!

arnyspencer

Beware my friends

Of hidden fears

That shut your eyes

And close your ears

They haunt your mind

Like unseen ghosts

We feel them least

But dread them most

When the day

Of horror nears

Beware my friends

Of hidden fears

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Confusion

By: Catarina

Have you ever been in a place where everyone is the same?

Where people ponder and sing?

Where life is a storybook, just as predictable as a school day?

Everyone knows everything,

And nothing is different any day or time?

Where the story of life just continues and never ends?

Where the waters of the Nile flow just as fast as a racecar never needing to stop?

And you are in the middle, watching all of this confusion, and no one seems to mind?

No one stopping.

No one listening to what you have to say?

When the night turns to day

And life is just as confusing as… the puzzle with no picture.

I've heard if this place, it's called my life, it's filled with confusion.

And has no light,

It's a place I like to call a confusing world,

Everything is moving,

Not stopping,

Never ending,

The noise gets louder and louder,

And it pounds deep into your heart,

And you are lost in Confusion?

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SMILE

Bhavna Kakkat

Always keep smiling,

it really doesn’t cost a thing

smile lavishly, don’t be a miser

with a smile you are never a loser

spread a smile everywhere

like a disease, make it epidemic

it is an easy and a lovely trick

to let others know you really care

and the results are also very quick

A smile is the best ornament one can wear

wearing it, everyday you get a new friend

always smile, make it your fashion trend

smile is the language of all countries

it has no limit or any boundaries

it only knows how to make others happy

to show them

they are wanted and cared.

so friends, its time to spread

A smile every day, every second

no matter whether it’s a foe or friend

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jessica krotzer

who am i if not myself

am i you

am i even real

do you know who i am

do you even see me

who am i

every morning i ask myself this

every morning i get the same answer

you are who ever you want to be

i just want to be me

but who am i

am i what i do

am i what i say

am i what you want me to be

who am i

am i just me

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ARTHROSES

MICHAEL SYLFAD AFOLABI

Words too

move, they do and would

at least in trickles

like wine poured

in glass;

gleaming, glistening . . .

listening, waiting was I

for them.

Slick lips hoard them

without reasons

as if for treason;

patient, yet must I be

patient

like a patient

awaiting a Doc's scope

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Road Rash

David

The story of my death was oh so sour,

It started when on my motorcycle i hit 100 miles per hour,

Next thing I knew I was sliding on concrete,

The center divider was the last thing in this world I would meet.

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*Just to cry*

-Taylor K.

As you leave me here,

Just to cry,

I think that maybe,

I would die,

On this floor that I lie,

I think "Surrender now and prepare to die",

As darkness shatters over me,

You leave me here just to bleed,

And just to think you thought,

You knew mw,

I thought I loved you,

But that's not true,

When I'm around you,

I feel so blue

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Days Forgotten

Matt Frye

The happy days forgotten,

left in the darkest place.

So many bad days.

Its hard to remember;

The good days seem few.

The bad days so many.

Bad days make darkness

The darkness is overwhelming;

The darkness is suffocating.

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Second Step Prayer

~~~~Aimiee R.~~~~~

Help me God

For I have no control

Satan is calling

He's taking my soul

Whispering voices

So foul, yet, so sweet

Before I know it, I'm admitting defeat

Humbly, on my knees

For help I am pleading

I don't want to surrender

But part of me is needing

It's a pretty big order

And I've asked You before

But, this time when I knock

Please, answer the door

My life is in ruins

And You're the answer, I'm told

Take me into your warmth

Out here it's so cold

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Ticking time life flits away,

burning embers soul degrades,

mortal memory slides to obscurity,

thoughts of morrow pointless wonder,

energy bounding never knowing winds of chill,

a life lifting thrill of body chemistry bliss of glee of crushing dryness,

crumbling strength crushing to a scenery,

another layer above a grain,

water flows as blood no longer goes,

and in the end it does burn in fire,

water no longer flows replaced by glow,

then darkness reigns, but not forever,

as darkness dies and comes together,

all death is only dead for a while,

does clump and join comes fire again,

one day blood will run again of no mind of known aflame,

darkness in this head still grows blind,

the throes whom once began,

the path to the end,

the end.

W. A. Flynn

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Shadows
Katherine Lee

Shadows cast upon the wall

Moving silently without a sound

My shadow will always be there

Until the sun goes down

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What if life was just a dream,

Of the ones who burn in Hell.

And the wat we live out all our days,

Are in the stories that they tell.

Would that explain the pain I fell,

And the evil that I do.

Or do I just try to blame someone,

For the heartache I've ben thru.

Could I ever get the thoughts I have,

That focus on my death.

To change the path of where I'll go,

When I take my final breath.

If the life I've lived was not my own,

Just created by another.

And the woman who gave birth to me,

Was not even my mother.

Is it possible these thoughts I have.

I should not even bother.

Cause if I'm right, there is no God,

And the Devil is my father.

danotis

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Life

Kristy R Ryan

Life's a bitch and then you die,

All i ask is why?

Why was it me that got abused?

Coz now my head is messed up and im confused.

My life is a complete mess,

But there's a few things for me to confess,

Im a liar and a cheat,

Because there's a habit i cannot beat.

Speed is a drug i shouldn't take but who cares anyway?

Coz in the end im the one who has to pay,

A needle goes through my vein,

Then away goes all my pain.

All i need is some love and affection,

Which might lead me in the right direction,

I think i have found Mr right,

But to see him i'll need to take a very long flight.

I love him coz he is so careing and smart,

And to me he is willing to open up his heart,

Will he be able to keep me out of strife,

And maybe save me from taking my own life?

It's just like living in hell,

Because only destiny will tell,

Life's a bitch and then you die.

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Me being unloved it's so hard to say,

Memories that I have will never die.

They will always be with me by my side,

My memories will never go away.

Long ago memories are here to stay,

Me being open i told my mom with pride.

My unlove feelings are nothing to hide,

For now on im open until death day.

Now i'm not scared to talk I have no fear,

She told me I was love, now I feel bad.

Because I thought all memories were true,

Then I heard a little voice in my ear.

It told me to think twice and don't get mad,

Because your mother will always love you.

LaShawnda Holt

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"Loosing Yourself"

megan

You've killed all the nerves inside of me. My body's going numb, head feels like it's ready to explode, the warmth of tears rushing down my cheeks. You're like the tide, you're unstable waves. Can't stop for nothing, breaking promises, killing all hope;I just can't cope! You've got scars up your arms from slicing away. You sicken me inside & out, everytime i think of you i just wanna throw-up. Go do your drugs & slice your wrist, see how much i care. I don't know how you can look in the mirror & be proud of the monster you became. Look at yourself, killing your body, burning your mind, taking advantage of a beautiful thing! Loosing yourself & everyone around you; you're only letting the drugs become your friend. You need to find yourself before you're gone forever. Every tear from my eye, is just another blood drop from your viens, letting you go is the hardest of all things. I'm starving for love, you're starving for drugs. You're out of my reach, I can't save you from the !

darkness that's swallowing you whole; I can't pull you out of the pit you have feel in ... lost somewhere in hell.

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Immortality

Verlaine tipton

The Dawns of Forever,

Caress my face.

It's soft sweet whisper

Derived from Eternity,

Resplendent in fine lace.

The Rays of Eras,

Cast their glow upon we,

Who seek to serve

Till the end of days,

The One who sets us free.

The Suns, and Moons and Stars of past,

Aglow in their wondrous beauty,

Encompass those who seek to find

The solution to an enigma

That will never be made to see.

The inconsistent Twilights

Of olden days and Eternity

Cast their eerie but reassuring beam

On those who wish upon

The Secret of Immortality.

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QUESTIONS

BY:KRISTEN WILSON

A GIRL ASKED A GUY IF HE THOUGHT SHE WAS PRETTY.

HE SAID...NO.

SHE ASKED HIM IF HE WOULD WANT TO BE WITH HER FOREVER...AND HE SAID NO.

SHE THEN ASKED HIM IF SHE WERE TO LEAVE WOULD HE CRY, AND ONCE AGAIN HE REPLIED WITH A NO.

SHE HAD HEARD ENOUGH. AS SHE WALKED AWAY, TEARS STREAMING DOWN HER FACE. THE BOY GRABBED HER ARM AND SAID... YOU'RE NOT PRETTY YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL. I DON'T WANT TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER. I NEED TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER!

AND I WOULDN'T CRY IF YOU WALKED AWAY... I'D DIE...

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HAVE FAITH
DAVID WADE

AS YOU WALK THROUGH THIS LIFE

YOU WILL FIND IT FULL OF STRIFE

AND AS YOU WALK THROUGH THIS LAND

YOU WILL FIND NO ONE TO HOLD YOUR HAND

AS YOU WALK IN A WORLD OF GRAY

YOU JUST PRAY FOR ONE MORE DAY

BUT IT SEEMS AS WE GROW OLDER

THE WORLD JUST GETS COLDER

THEN ALL AT ONCE WE HEAR A VOICE

FROM THE SKY

AND SAYS I AM WITH YOU SO DON'T CRY

I WILL REMOVE THE MOUNTAINS IN YOUR WAY

AND GIVE YOU SIGHT AND A BRIGHTER DAY

SO PUT JESUS IN YOUR HEART

AND YOU WILL GET A BRAND NEW START

SO TRUST IN HIM AS YOU LIVE

AND TO YOU HE WILL GLADLY GIVE

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Environmental Ignorance

by Patty Apostolides, 2005

Rich earth, soil ready to be seeded

Fields of green grass, tall solid trees

How long will you remain naive

Like us?

No longer do you belong to us

Your people, but to

Gigantic chemical companies

That pollute your very existence,

Your waters, your land, the air we breathe -

Without us knowing about it.

Technical corridor, toxic corridor

When land near chemical companies

Becomes polluted with toxins

So much so, that it cannot be used

For Farming or living.

Then will the earth give a great shudder

And wither away, mourning

The loss of her youth,

Mourning the future of her people.

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13th Line

by Jameel Heath

Time abruptly ceasing to exist,

the lords of death angrily shaking their fists,

darkness closing all around,

I scratch the love slowly off my list;

flowers unfurling like some lost rhyme,

burn the sally with a dime,

scenes of something you shall see,

I am nothing if not a crazy mime;

you are me, I am you,

can't God just tell me what to do!?!

into eternity in my I,

into eternity I slowly flew;

I can see past the grasp of night,

AM somewhere deep within my flight,

The light is deceptively closing in,

AQUARIAN age begins with blight,

MESSIAH calling forth my sight;

this hollow Earth I can't abide,

in darkness, in thought, so wearily hide,

lost in space or time, I no longer know,

the zodiac so long we've had to ride,

can't you see? can't you see?!?

good and evil are on the same side;

folded together and ever embracing,

the end of duality is what we're facing.

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DEAR MOM

---BY RICHARD DENNEY 16

U NEVER LISTENED

2 WHAT I HAD 2 SAY ABOUT MY LIFE

AND HOW IM GAY ITS STUPID YOU NEVER WERE THERE 4 ME ONLY WHEN SOMEONE DIED BUT NOW IM DEAD AND I DIDN'T THINK YOU'D CRY

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I have a father.

Yes I do.

But a dad?

Oh no.

That's not true.

Does he love me?

I couldn't say.

Does he want me?

Not today.

Once upon a time I had a dad.

But then one day he got mad.

Ever since then it's been bad.

Oh,what I could of had.

A dad who loved me a dad who cared.

One of which I wouldn't be scared.

One I could talk to every day.

And who was the best in every way.

But I hate him now.

So fuck him back.

You can go live in a broken down shack.

Get out of my life.

Get out of my head.

Fucking hell I wish you were dead!!

jillB

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It seems to be a waste

kenny ritchie II

these days i watch the air fill with ash

burning on a stake of an unmistaken past

lost are those who plunder and wait for

their eyes to glow with rubies allowing greed to fill empty hearts of people who dont know what they're doing how i long for this incomparable globe to sit still i dont want to face reality who does noone because reality is what it is until its over and done if they ever come ill run if i dont make it dont shun know that i did not give up as some may think just know that i couldnt get out of that little pinch it musn't belong now for the end to appear i know that its coming so i fear

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DON’T WORRY
krazy_gurl

DON’T WORRY? Its all going to be fine but they just don’t understand!

I’m so messed up inside my head as I sit here as I cry writing this to myself,

Why do I always feel alone in this word hoping it will go away by itself.

My brown skin is my identity but its something that will never change,

I live with this pain knowing my mistakes may not always be a gain.

I feel so down but what can I say to those who love me, about the battle within.

This pain kills me everyday and every night, scaring me from myself I just don’t know where to begin.

I am so tired of fighting with myself tired of being this person that everyone wants me to be, I want to live for myself and be I want to be that person in the future I foresee.

But it all comes at a cost leaving the family I have been there for me for twenty years, or fall into the hands of forbidden love which could end in tears.

Life comes at a cost for a brown skin where so much pain and disappointment remains why can’t I just be normal and live that normal life where I marry the one that impresses my old man.

So much hope, so many dreams that everyone have seen in me will shatter before the eyes, this guilt makes me think is it worth breaking all ties.

The pointing fingers and the dagger eyes from the Asians that like to degrade me because your with a black guy, well I proud to say he’s with me

I will wipe away those tears and be strong and every time you hit me I will come back even stronger. I will conquer all my fears and obstacles and be that person I want to be, So I can say don’t worry because it’s going to be fine as only I can understand!

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30 January, 2005

Insanity turns 57 today.

* Gandhi was assassinated on 30 January, 1948 when he was on his way to offer prayers at his Birla Residence, New Delhi.

B.S.S.Kameshwara Rao

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GOD IS CALLING

paul england

He's calling my name\he'll come again

He's calling me\to set me free\

he's been before\he's back for me

To show a place\were things come free

No money no power\no pain to see

No money or hands\our souls float free

No drugs in demand\god is calling see

A light this place\to were we go\is this a

place\we've been before

The fear we feel\before were there

If we knew\would we care

God is back\he's calling again

God is near\he's calling my name

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SMOTHER

SARAH HODGSON

i'm weak

do you see it

do i quake

do i quiver

do i shudder

as i whisper

make it stop

make it end

take the pain

it's not my friend

i want so much

but feel so low

is this the end

do you know

system overload

senses numbed

where's that noise

coming from

it's in my head

it's all around

every angle, every way

every week, every day

crave the silence

deny the noise

please just smother

that hidden voice

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OPEN MIC ENCORE II February, 2005

OPEN MIC ENCORE II
February, 2005