OPEN MIC ENCORE FOUR Up

that i'm seeking for freedom and yet im already free

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For You

Ashley McQueen

I don't know why

but still I am here

waiting for you

loving you

like I always have

even though your feelings

have changed

and you are different.

You broke my heart

my spirit

my everything is gone now

and still I cannot

stop my love for you.

~!~

My World

Dracose

Laying my head, resting my eyes,

and getting prepared for another lonely night.

My thoughts turn to you as they always do,

my heart keeping time with a whisper of your love so true.

Drifting off slowly into the land of sleep,

your lips on my mind your lips so sweet.

To hold you again, and take you into my dreams,

the wonder of you will never leave me it seems.

The way you make me feel, loved and special,

the night goes by so slowly without you to fill my vessel.

I long for the day; you will be here as I sleep,

my arms with yours our love another’s to keep.

Finally in sleep my dreams are colorful with you,

we dance together to our song, towards the morning dew.

You are always in my dreams you wonderful girl,

you are my every waking breath, you are

my world.

~!~

My Melissa

Shayn Brown

Eyes like that of the deep blue sea

Hair like that of golden wheat in the warm summer's breeze

A face that is so beautiful that you want to weep at God's wonder

A smile that can warm the darkest of hearts

A heart that could warm an Alaskan winter's night

God's most Beautiful and perfect of creations

One that would make any Angel jealous

The most perfect of all creations

~!~

The Promise

Tricia P.

Promise me you will never leave my side

Be there any time for me to kiss my pain away

and ease my soul in my time of need

When I hurt inside I will think of you

and I will be healed

Your love has showed me places I have never seen

taken my soul places I have never been or even dreamed of

Promise me the world everyday, every night

When you need me the most stay by my side

I will give the same love in return

promising you everything I have and everything I can be

My love will never be shared with another because

My promise has been made

~!~

Feelings in my Heart

Annie Newcomer

I wish that I could put to words,

the feelings in my heart.

The undying love I have for you,

that never will depart.

The pain that seems to come my way,

when ever I think of you.

The steadfast hope that springs eternal,

that you would love me too.

The wishful longings that I have,

of you and me together.

All these feelings that I have,

I feel I'll have forever.

~!~

What is Blue?

Gordon Harper

Blue is the color of the sky--

Face of an ocean

Face of a blue jay flying so high

Blue is blueberry

And a saddened face

And the smell of muffins

At Grandma's place

Blue is the color peace

And the sound of the wind

Blue is the color of the sea

And the feeling of missing a very close friend

Blue is the beach

At the edge of the sand

Where the waves are washing

The shoreline down.

Blue is a bird

Blue is a tear

Blue is the heart

When love's end is near

Blue is the color

In so many eyes

Blue is blueberry

And fireflies.

Blue is an emotion

That starts in the heart

When caring for someone

Won't let them depart.

Blue is a dream

Where the angels swoon

Where love lasts forever

Under the light of the moon

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left me hanging at the end of the day

missed her hand waving my way

no surprise its what i expect

losing out gives you time to reflect

what you really want fills your mind

real versions are the ones you never find

so i say as the day closes its eyes

forget the girl and all other ties

nothings perfect

if it doesn't make you feel special

nothings right

when everything fills you with spite

reach out your hand and touch the air

its the only thing you know is there

even though the feelings close to none

better than not having feelings to share with one

ryan pedrom

who is sometimes north-bound.

~!~

The Gift?
By Thomas Gregg

I lay in bed and see me dead

I see my death and how it comes

And suddenly my body numbs.

From the corner of my eye

I see how all my friends will die

And realise now it's all a lie.

What's within will not rise high

Nor will it fall below and fry

Instead we all just simply lie.

So now I must reject this dream

And wish that i had never seen

Everything from now I do

Will countdown till the dream comes true.

~!~

"Fight the good fight?"

You didnt give me the chance

before you went on

and tore apart our romance

And although it hurts

to think of you and I

to think of how

you told that lie

I know that,if given the chance

I would've fought the good fight

and saved our romance...

Kevin Mitchell

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The One For Me?

Nate Ludwig

Four small words, it is such a huge statement.

A few tough it out, some say replacement.

For obvious reasons, some will not work.

To lie or to cheat, you will only get hurt.

Through trial and error, some may find pain.

Use common sense, like umbrellas and rain.

It may not be easy, times might get hard.

It may take some time, to play the right card.

With time and patience, our dreams can come true.

When I look forward, no doubt I see you.

My long term goal, is surely not gold.

Nothing can stop us, while faith we do hold.

Each other and God, we love with our heart.

If we do this we shall never depart.

Heart, mind, and body, combine them and win.

To have such a strong faith, comes from within.

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A Rude Awakening

Ferron E. Boothe

Growing up I often heard

Big boys don’t cry

So when things got really tough

The feelings I denied

I drank I drugged

And ultimately lost

All I did possess

Now I realize

My disease

I must put to rest

It’s not enough

To leave

The drink and drug alone

I’ve got to change the things

That made me use before

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~Drugs Can Change*~

MARIE JO HOFFARD

I know you wont talk to me,

you wont even look at me,

you avoid me as much as possible.

I'd try and talk to you,

but I know that you wouldn't listen.

You have changed from what I remember,

and it's not for the best.

You chose drugs over me.

It's sad but true.

I wonder why,

if drugs are actually better than love,

because love is a drug it's self.

Do drugs give you a better high,

than love has ever done.

I've realized that you and I,

are never more.

It doesn't bother me any more,

that you are gone.

I think that I have moved on.

I know that I can find happiness else where,

but with you I was incredibly happy.

I hope that your life now,

is what you want it to be,

and that you are happy.

Because I can finally be happy inside,

and with my self.

~!~

With out guidance one day

I started to live my life the way I thought was right

With out guidance, I blamed myself

I became ice cold or blindly hot

They were my security blankets that no one

Could get to

Then it dropped away

My body was like an empty shell with no

Foundations of its own

I started the painful building, the scraping

And the painting

Until life was changed again

And I was forced to grow up more than I should of again

And now in time, I am me

Nothing that you can change

Though you wish too

Im not sorry about it

I love me more that I will ever love you

Lauren Labombarda

~!~

Ruby

Lorna Arocena

When?

When will we be together again?

Or is this as good as it gets

A visit here and there

And our kiss is as fresh as a new blade of grass

What then?

What then of you and I?

It is there you know,

The passion doesn’t fade

And I guess in life that is what’s to live for

But tell me

How much longer?

Or is this it

My heart can love no other

And I remain nor here nor there

Just in this in between

Where I yearn to fly

And where I long for you.

~!~

The flame's melody

Brandon Hakubi

I lay in bed. A voice replays in my head. I close my eyes and dream of fire. The flames take shape of a man's desire. I walk to the flames of mystery. Pehaps it can ease my misery. My curiosity slowly kills me. But I can't refuse the flame's melody. Its song was so melodic. Even the strongest of men would turn choatic. I've been put in a trance by a brilliant lure. But I really don't care for a cure. I beg and plead for a simple kiss. Nothing on earth can torture me more than this. I fear they will never end, these dreams. Because now in this world, nothing is as it seems.

~!~

No more, the victim

Christine

She was walking alone down a darkened street Lit only by the moon

Fearless and confidant but he thought, that would end soon,

He had been stalking her for weeks knew everywhere she went

His anger was building he needed to vent,

She heard footsteps coming up from behind

She was afraid to turn afraid of what she would find,

The steps grew louder and closer in stride

She began to run she needed to hide,

Alone in the dark fighting for air

All her senses acutely aware,

Her eyes darting left and right looking all around

There was nothing there knowone to be found,

She crept out of hiding and froze in her place

Because right in front of her was a familiar face,

In his eyes, she saw nothing on his lips was a grin

In his hand was a knife she shivered within,

I told you I would find you he said with a hiss

He swung with the knife she ducked he missed,

Don’t fight me you bitch you know you wont win”

He lunged forward and swung again,

She fell to the ground he swung once more

It was then she decided not to be his victim no more

With pain in her side and blood beginning to run

She reached in her purse and pulled out a gun,

Pulling back the hammer it clicked, she took aim

It was now time for her to release herself from the pain,

She struggled to her feet to stare him in the face

Then pulling the trigger his life she erased.

~!~

Confusion

By Sarah Turney

He seems so strong,

But He is truly weak.

He could be strong if he wasn’t afraid to show his feelings,

But that would make Him feel vulnerable.

He makes me feel so sad,

But when I am with Him I am happy.

He has the ability to make me feel special,

But he can also make me feel used.

He is in my heart,

But I will kick him out.

He will realize the way he feels one day,

But then I will be gone.

~!~

What good is passion without someone to share it with

Why am I not able to be happy

Why am I not able to love or be loved

Am I what I do or why I do

Am I what I say or why I say

All of the answers are deep within yourself...

Ken Thomas

~!~

"My Niggah"
KIKI (MARKESHA)

My niggah,

my friend till the end.

Around my nigga I don't have to front or pretend.

My niggah,

all I need, like the air I breathe.

My niggah is my world, my world is my niggah.

My flowers bloom because of him.

My niggah, someone I can confide in.

My sky is blue because of you.

My sun continues to shine,because you are still mine.

My niggah is da reason my grass is green.

My niggah came striaght out of a dream.

My niggah is my king,and most of all

my niggah, is my...

EVERYTHING.

~!~

MOTHER

TEKEMA NELSON

I remember when i was just a little one

You would always tell me right from wrong

But now since I'm all grown up now

You wish you can still do that

But mom I know what to do and what not to do

It's all in trusting me

As long as you did your best

I am grateful

You've always told me I can do what ever I set my mind to

By you saying that

Makes me want to try harder to succeed

I've always tired to figure out a way to show how much I appreciate how hard you worked to keep me on track

And this little gift is not the beginning

~!~

RED ROSE

By: Jennifer Atherton

A red rose sits on the lips of a peaceful lover. With hair as soft as the cheeks on her sweet face, and dark mysteries eyes that will caper you into her web of lies, and a poisonous kiss that will make you love her for eternity. But before she moves in for the kiss she will make you look into her eyes as her name echoes in your mind. Even throw it has been three years since you have seen her. Then all of a sudden you awake to find your self in her arms as a red rose sits on your lips.

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Oh sweet baby boy,

Your smile,

Your laugh,

You were born on that day in august,

You turned 1 on that day in august,

You died but just a few days later,

We all miss you,

Oh sweet baby boy,

Your sisters, your parents,

Your family,

Promise me,

Oh sweet baby boy,

That you will watch me and help me,

Until I see you again in heaven.

lauren sullivan

~!~

UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF YOU

Chelsea Rae Kramer

Confused by this craving

It seems I have an addiction

a temptation I can't control

wrong I may be, but I blame you

The sound of your voice

echoes through my mind

I try to fight it, but it remains

The smell of you

intoxicates me forever

Ill need help to sobriety

The touch of your hand

Sends me into a state of ecstasy

walking on cloud nine

I can only hope I don't fall

There maybe a solution to save me

yet I don't attempt to find any

These emotions are too perfect

It would be stupidity to restrain.

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Cold Clay
By Sheri Twila Lowe

There are those who devour themselves

From the inside out

They have been dead

Long before their actions

Outrage society

You cannot punish a corpse

Only desecrate it

And it is this

Indignity

That allows them to walk

Long after

They cease to live

They are

Cold clay

They have become

Unmade

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Untitled

Erin Horne

Do you know what you do to me

When you just ignore me

The love we had was true to me

But now it's gone, how can this be

Now it seems like you just don't care

And to me that's just not fair

I gave you my heart

And you tore it apart

I played your game for awhile

And for you I would have walked a thousand miles

The grounds we stood on were very thin

Because with me you could never look within

I gave you my love and it was true

And now you've made me feel down and blue

Now you leave me standing here all torn apart

As you walk away for a brand new start

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WHY?
Tiffany Munsey

Why do I go through all this shit? Why do I put up with your comments and negative remarks? Why do I look forward to seeing you all day yet hide so much of myself when I finally encounter you? Why do I do all this? I wish I knew.

Maybe it's the way I feel when you hold me in your arms, like I'm sheltered from this cruel world. Maybe it's the power I feel knowing I can turn you on with the touch of my hand. Maybe it's the sexual energy that flows so freely between us.

I only wish I could understand why and how I subject myself to you day after day, knowing you are in it only for the sexual pleasure. You are a good person who has been hurt one to many times. I have the unfortunate job of trying to pick-up the pieces and put them back together again.

Maybe I'm the wrong person. Maybe it's the wrong time. We may never know. Whatever the reason, it's only a matter of time before I realize I deserve better, despite the feelings I have for you. Maybe then you'll realize what you lost, only then I'll be nothing more than a faded memory.

~!~

Friendship and trust, hand in hand,

so often mistaken,

one for the other.

We think that with friendship

trust should follow.

Wouldn't you think after trust,

there would be friendship?

Trust, the maker,

and so often the breaker

of friendship,

Taken for granted,

broken so easily

by a harsh comment, or an inconsiderate action.

Friendship, broken by the misuse of trust,

so fragile,

Both treasured by some,

but by others, frivolously used.

Friendship and trust, hand in hand,

Needed by all,

Yet taken for granted.

georgina sillcock

~!~

Seagulls Wonder

James Mcknight

Man searches sea for winds like thee.

Murderous by voice, a ship leans to.

But not a sailor high, arms still green.

For not withstanding, a seagull may take a peek, or two.

Hesitation, let not be.

Isn’t it polite to think like animals do?

Winds full blown, south, east, or west.

But north, is always the test.

High, where wings stretch forevermore.

Seagulls perched kneeling --- all watching.

Yes, their eyes and brains, tempters too.

Humans, some liken them to.--- I wonder.

On boats, far out to sea.

Man on watch; see what fishes can seize.

Out far, thru distant clouds.

Some storms, come a brewin’.

Majesty’s monsters blow smoke, and thunder!

Perched high on mast yet yonder.

But a seagull has eyes, looking.

Yes, just full of wonder.

~!~

THE STARE

AKITA GOULART

You stood right in front of me

And complained how much you cared

But I couldn’t prove myself to you

Always ignored the passion we shared

I gave you my shoulder to cry on

And helped you through your pain

My heart needed to be healed

You laughed, thinking I was insane

She never meant anything to me

I can never hurt you like that again

It was a horrible mistake that I had learned

Please forgive me and let me explain

My heart cried with your tears

Our love was too much to lose

I couldn’t stop loving you

But by then I was too confused

Late in November you gave me that stare

You didn’t speak what I wanted you to feel

You told me you wanted her

It can never be, it was never real

~!~

A sigh of love,

did i just hear?

The pain has gone,

and now its clear.

The dust has gone,

from my eyes,

i can now see,

to the other side.

I missed the one,

who i used to hold,

now i know,

Love is like Gold

Lianne Jordan

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OPEN MIC ENCORE FOUR Up-dated October, 2002

OPEN MIC ENCORE FOUR
Up-dated October, 2002